Patience.....

So now we have our license. Now the search and the wait begins. I've spent hours over the past two days searching the adoptuskids website. Searching the faces, reading the profiles. Feeling guilty as I move on to the next one. I guess international adoption is good in the way that you are offered a referral, theres no album of kids, kids who know that people are passing them up, knowing that at some level they are not wanted, no one to feel guilty over. Our homestudy has been sent to our local DCYF to await matches to children that they think might be a good fit with our family. There are so many children out there, most of whom are in the mid to late teens, older than we are looking for. I wish I could take them, wish I could find homes for all of them. I guess the red thread, as many of my friends in the China adoption programs know about will lead us to the child/children that we are destined to love. Those that have already begun to grow in our hearts even without a face or a name.